exhausted??

devastated??

tired??

feelings na yaon sa utak ko ngonian.,.

isn't stupid wen ya fall inlove agen but it seems like kulang?

wut the heck shud i feel ba tlga?actually not dat kualng dai ko lng

makua c dapat na response nya kaya cguro ganun..

 

which is KAKABAD3P NA SOBRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 

Let the body take control.

feel it till it bleed ya to death.

bin 3 months hir.

thinking bout things dat doesnt exist

those pain and angst that i feel..

i wanna release it.its kinda weird.

but its not me at all

for mah own sake.

take me to the death and fall and rise till hell crashes yah in pain

made mah mistake in the past.but damn its cumin back like shit

in mah head.

mah body nids it.i donty even knw if wut i fil is true.

or this is juz anxiety.

mah body juz nid it.

i better off alone.

feeling of wanting him that much.

feeling of needin him ..

im crash.is this true or jz anxiety?

wutever it was.i dont give a damn.cuz right now

i jz wanna enjoy this piece of shit.

 

 

 

-feel weird-

-i pray foe you to give me sum1-

-den he came-

-everything is a rainbow from mah head-

-till it bleeds with nuttin but shit.

-we fuck like hell-

-do it foe a couple of times-

-he treated me shit-

-den he left wid nuttin but pain-

-it happen agen-

-he sez he loves me- but i dont fil him anymore-

- wana sez gudbye but he hears nuttin..

-den sum1 came.i rili like him--

-i feel him-

-i cry foe him-

-i held his hand-

-till it bleeds.

-love is like a rose it bleeds mah hand.

-i pray foe sumffin to happen-

-but its gona be 214.

-nuttin is doin gud-

-mah family hates me-

-cuz i dont have a money-

-to feed dem-

-but its not mah fawkin responsiblity-

-dey foeget dat they left me-

-wen i was in tragedy-

-fuck you all-

-you're like a shit in mah fawking mess up..life! 

Looking for a reason.
To end my treason.
Treason that I bring on myself.
Treason that is falsly dealt.
It all ends on me.
It's so bad it's hard to breathe.
I can't keep this up.
But I can't deal it out enough.
The pressure , builds tension.
It causes my aggression.
Leads me to a confession.
I realize that the person I am talking to is me.
But then all of a sudden I have a different personality.
A different person comes out with a different opinion.
I'm all of a sudden lost within.
This depression has led me to insanity.
I'm no longer alone even if it's just me.
In one hand he lays out a coin with a date.
she said that was a day and a twist of fate.
I look at the date and it says 2004/
I was 20.
The day of my first boyfriend?
Now the truth starts to bend.
My thoughts begin to stir.
All of this is caused by her.
I can feel the insanity begin to die.
All of a sudden my friend is gone in the blink of an eye.
I feel something in my hand and my fingers begin to unfold.
In my hand the coin from 2004 I hold.
sHe comes and she goes.
Somethings she hides, other things she shows.
But this person is a part of me.
This man isn't hard to see.
sHe is as plain as day.
Sometimes she has something to say.
Sometimes when we talk we start debating.
Will he come again I sit here patiently waiting...